new journal. [22 Nov 2005|05:10pm] "Its a scandal when people waste their lives on things they must do in the darkness where no one else will see. Rip the cover off those frauds and see how attractive they look in the light of Christ." -eph5:11- so i haven't been the best of people and i haven't been the best of immitators i'm starting a new journal, not to get away from any of you. kinda to get away from my old self. i need a fresh start. i've been depressed, and really let down by others and myself, and i let that take its toll on me and my standards. i was broken down, and now i'm being built up and finally held accountable. if you feel that you can forget this journal and forgive me for not being honest and not giving my all to what i said i would, please add me on my new www.livejournal.com/~trashetreasure. "i share with complete strangers my most personal of pleasures. i scribble tidbits of useless mind info--trash,treasure. spend hours, at my leisure, like sharpened precise tweezers." 2 left me bleeding | __

oh goodness [20 Nov 2005|01:55am] [ music | teagan and sara - speak slow ] Matt's brother Joey's wedding was beautiful. saw Walk the Line afterwards with alyssa and greg. theyre too funny. seriousy. had a good cry on matt's shoulder on the way home due to my hypocritical nature. thank goodness he's there to listen to me groan about the crap i do. tonight i went to the mall with dav, bought ash and ana's Xmas gifts ate at La Haciendas. came home to my house and watched vh1. ate homeade banan nut bread muffins. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. my birthday is this thursday, thats right, thanksgiving. if you're a friend and you dont know what to buy heres a few idears: -best buy gift cards -hair cut from salon diva (by chelsea only) -hair dye from salon diva (by chelsea only) -new big glasses (mine are breaking) -Neutrogena Anti-Residue Shampoo -Aveda Control Tape (found at ulta) -Aveda Phomollient Styling foam (found at ulta) -Aveda Light Elements Detailing Mist Wax -Crest Whitening Strips -Aveda Night Nutrients (found at ulta) if you dont have much cash right now(like me) just draw me a picture of the two of us, so i can hang it on my wall. thanks. 14 left me bleeding | __

[16 Nov 2005|08:30pm] [ music | chris tomlin ] theres some theo lovin for ya. and about today...lets just say... Karina and i look good shopping together. we even got matching shirts. :D. 10 left me bleeding | __

[14 Nov 2005|11:48pm] [ mood | satisfied ] [ music | coheed - welcome home ] went bowling with dav, bob [brian], chelsea, mike t, brent, and peter. i lost every game...cuz i suck...but umm.... HERE ARE SOME PICTURES FROM THE ELDRIDGE SHOW! and yeah, so what if some are the same as ana's. mine are resized, rotated, and contrasted. ( TAKE THAT! ) 8 left me bleeding | __

[12 Nov 2005|12:46am] [ mood | sleepy ] ASHLEY&ANA ARE HERE IN HOUSTON!! AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! and tomorrow, we're doing this. gimme a holla if you wanna go and maybe need a ride. ps: tonight @ Krogers this random lady saw matt opening my car door for me even though he had his hands filled with groceries. she rolled down her car window and told me many awesome things, but the most awesome was, "make sure you keep him." i think i will. 8 left me bleeding | __

[09 Nov 2005|07:15pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | death cab for cutie ] i got so sick today spitting up at my own expense like a nauseous drunkard asking for another drink.   sitting on the other side of the door that i wouldn't open you listened to the gurgling and the sputtering of my stomach.   all the gross noises i made, the terrible smells of acid i produced. you ushered me into bed, you got me some more water, a box of crackers, a coca cola.   and once my "bug" had finished its tour of my intestines and there was not an ounce of nutrition left in me...   you held me and leaned in so close you played a Death Cab song for me you sang the words softly into my right ear i couldn't hear a word Ben said   all i knew at that very moment was your sweet, off-key, low tones saying,   "love of mine, someday you will die but i'll be close behind, and follow you into the dark." 2 left me bleeding | __

to destroy something beautiful. [08 Nov 2005|12:26am] [ music | the honorary title - bridge and tunnel ] it's been my pleasure but, can you believe they tried to interfere with this? 16 left me bleeding | __

[07 Nov 2005|06:14pm] [ music | ryan cabrera ] matt and my birthday countdown: 17 days!   ps, today i almost attempted to set up a little party/get together for me and matt, since everyone will be in town for thanksgiving. but it was way too difficult just to set up a time when i can see all of my buds. i really wanted a party but eh, just seeing folks during the holiday will be good enough. booty. 8 left me bleeding | __

[06 Nov 2005|11:59pm] [ music | the good life - some "B.S." escape ] i just wanted to let all of you know that i know all of your dark secrets.   be prepared to be exposed. 20 left me bleeding | __

[05 Nov 2005|03:08pm] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | dave matthews ] i've got a demand. if your television set receives MTV2, and you are infront of it at 9 p.m.,and you watch a series called 'HeadBangersBall' you will see the wonderfully genuine and hilarious michael theobald. demand stated. anyways here was my entertaining morning: s to the cott: my mom and i went and fed the homeless this morning, and i totally smelled like them once i was done. and dude there was a homeless fight today. s to the cott: it was crazy! zaomustdie: over what? s to the cott: i was like two feet from it s to the cott: one of them had been stealing from some building that was close by s to the cott: and he was blaming it on the other guy s to the cott: and omg it just burst out. s to the cott:  hahaha it was terrible.one guy threw his cup of water and it hit me in the face. s to the cott: i was like 'HOLY CRAP!' zaomustdie: hahahahahaha s to the cott: i was just stood there in awe....while a few others tried to pull them apart. but they wouldnt stop zaomustdie: damn s to the cott: so this one reeeeaaaaalllllyyyy fat guy just came and sat on them. s to the cott: and then they stopped. s to the cott: they were twitching a little under the fat guy, but the still stopped. s to the cott: it was awesome zaomustdie: hahahahahahahahaha. __

the highlight of my day [02 Nov 2005|11:29pm] [ mood | naughty ] it is no longer about being a fake, everyone uses loops in the live performances (usually not in EVERY line of the song, but hey) its now about just being an idiot and having the whole world realize it. DEE-BOWED. 9 left me bleeding | __

futures foretold, come swaying come swaying! [31 Oct 2005|11:51pm] [ mood | messy. ] i know these entries seem repetitive, and maybe a little annoying to readers, but i really do love this guy, and lately he's been one of the best people in all of my life. not to mention its easy to write about how i love him, and just post a little picture. it's hard to write about all the crap thats going on in my life, and have no imagery. btw, Boo! happy halloween, kids. 12 left me bleeding | __

[29 Oct 2005|02:19pm] [ music | vh1 ] halloween party pictures later. for now, this is all you need. we all know who i love, dont we? 6 left me bleeding | __

[29 Oct 2005|02:18am] baby, you're so much stronger than you think. and you're going to be okay tomorrow. He and i will be there with you every step of the way. don't be nervous, don't be fake. just accept your emotions and let out whatever needs to be let out. i love you matt. i love you. 4 left me bleeding | __

[28 Oct 2005|12:21am] [ mood | gassy ] [ music | matt talking about baseball...whats new. ] DoubleShots Grand Opening Tomorrow! come see me from 8:30 am - 1:30 pm. i might love you. i might not. COME GETCHUR COFFEE HOMES! 2 left me bleeding | __

&btw [27 Oct 2005|01:20am] karina, your stinkin' pretty face inspired me. enjoy. 6 left me bleeding | __

"come hell or high water." [27 Oct 2005|12:08am] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | MC Chris ] okay someone needs to move into this big open room upstairs next to me. i need a sister to share makeup with. i need a friend who i can trade clothes with. i need girls who don't live in austin. i need a "lets get all cute, go out, and take ten thousand pictures!" night.   ashley, ana, meg, i am so looking forward to this friday. and i swear if we run into absolutely drama that night about anything, or anyone, or whatever i am freaking not going to stand it. i am determined to have a chill girls' night. determined. all you boys, i hope you have fun that night too...but i really need some girl lovin'. and i don't care how that sounds.   10 left me bleeding | __

old austin pictures. [25 Oct 2005|11:04pm] [ mood | thankful ] [ music | new found glory ] here's a bunch of pictures from austin that i never uploaded. they're super cute and if you think you're in one of them, you probably are. ( believe me, you'll enjoy them. there are alot. ) 18 left me bleeding | __

shout out to mah giiiirrrrllzzz! [24 Oct 2005|11:48pm] [ mood | thirsty ] [ music | the killers ] if your name is angel: i hate choo for the absense of pictures. but i love you for the 'oh dang!' message. mmmm. i misses you. ashley and/or ana: i hate that i havent seen you in forever, and i'm missing you so much. the three blind mice never looked as good as they will this weekend. meggit: you need to swing by my place so we can continue making sweet sweet lovin's. and so we can pick out some cutsie ikea stuff for you. amanda: i like you. i want you to come on more band weekends like this past one. thanks for being a shoulder to cry on. love love. bonnie: where are you? and to one special boy, Jonathon: i miss you kid, i've gotten your aim messages and we will be talking soon. hang in there, and know that even though i can't really talk right now i love you and i'm praying for you like crazy. you're my little brother and don't you forget it. 4 left me bleeding | __

[20 Oct 2005|11:53pm] matt, tonight you showed me such a rare love that, as you remember,made me just cry into your chest for at least thirty minutes. haha, so much crying that my dad even came upstairs to check on me. :D. you're incredible and this love that you've been consistently giving me, i know is unconditional. you're amazing, even when you are in pain and have nothing else to give, you take care of me. i love you.and hey, let's grow old together. -your little lolo. [ps, journal readers, ill be gone this weekend say some prayers so that i dont get pre-show diareahh like usual. <3) 4 left me bleeding | __

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